You take the good, you take the bad, you take 'em both and there you have...

Subject:	I remember...
Time:	8:31 pm.
Mood:	tired.

I remember a time, some years ago now, where I used to be depressed constantly. I would usually spend the majority of my time writing in this very same livejournal account to pass the time. It almost seemed like it was someone who would listen and occasionally talk back (through the comments some friends would leave). After completely getting over a pretty bad relationship, I discovered that there was more to life than sitting on the computer all of the time and hoping that someone would value even the most insignificant thought in my head. Whatever I wrote down seemed important to me, but it really wasn't. Just a feeble attempt at clawing my way out of oblivion.

To those people who used to put me down, even when I thought they were friends, I laugh now. I know I've grown up more than most people I know over the last three years. I've got a very good job that I know I'm good at, and I'm only looking to move up from here. I've made a lot of friends by just being myself and doing a variety of good things for other people whether they be small or big. I have been paid off with good karma here and there, like getting lucky with making new friends, my job, or just being able to finally get rid of the debt that's been building up for me since I turned 18. Things are really turning around.

This weekend I plan on getting a tattoo... It's going to be the Twilight Princess Triforce above my right ankle, and below that it will say "Courage" in Hylian. Zelda's always been one of my favorite game series, mainly because I grew up on them and would play them when I had no friends. I remember after Kira had moved away when I was in 4th grade, I started playing Ocarina of Time to sort of fill the void of not having someone be there. Since 4th grade, I've played that game more than any other and have always held a close fondness for it and any of its predecessors. After my relationship ended with Tyler and I found myself not having any friends again, I started playing Wind Waker and got lost in that. Same goes for Majora's Mask, and more recently some of the older Zelda games, and not to mention one of the greatest thus far: Twilight Princess.

I think I've overcome a lot in my life so I'm happy with my decision on the word "Courage" under the Triforce. I was always told by one of my closest and best friends, whom unfortunately I've only had the pleasure of meeting once (but that will change soon), that I was a strong-willed person and I could survive anything. One thing he stressed on me was to "Stay Tough". Not only is "Courage" the best word to associate with Link himself, I think it's a good word to link back to me as well.

Anyway, I think that's enough out of me for now. Things are going to be changing a lot more come these next few months... Things will definitely continue on the good path they're on now. I will still continue to periodically update this journal, but as far as my dependency for it goes, I think I'll do just fine without checking it every other day.

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